Okay, so I thought I would post weekly but life has overtaken me! It all started innocently enough when I was volunteering at my community garden with the Library Kids In The Garden project and got to know the Master Gardener, Colleen. From her I learned that I did not need fencing to have my own garden, that I could make a compost bin from items I had on hand and thought I would burn (eek) ! It went from there. So now I have a quarter plot at the community garden and one about the same size here. The one here is my writing slacker excuse du jour. First I had to haul railroad ties from else-where on the property, uphill of course! And I had to mow down the grasses and weeds; oh, and build my compost bin from old broken down pallets that remained from when the house was built and thus pre-dating me. And, and, and….created a writing furlough in my mind.
Did I mention the rose bush? I found myself busy and productive, the good stuff; but yet again leaving my life’s passion in the dust. I am over and over regrouping to find that balance in my life. It seems I live on a teeter-totter rather than a balance beam and I need to find a way to migrate to the better location.
Tonight is my first step in finding balance, which means that I cannot leave my passion for writing behind; I must make room for things I value such as the gardens and library; and lose the time wasters. Distractions are so easy to come by and so hard to set aside, but that is my goal. Identifying the distracting elements and focusing on the productive ones.
You will find me circling back to writing more, but maybe a bit about gardens, kids, the library, composting and weather instead of the more philosophical topics, but then again all of those things can generate a bit of philosophy or at least some homespun wisdom. Like all things in life, blogging evolves and we shall see where this goes.
“The beauty you see is also in you…
You only see what you contain”
Isn’t it one of the lovely circles of life that the beauty we take in, we hold, and it in turn allows us to see and experience more beauty in all things? I am privileged to live in a most beautiful place and it has opened my heart to other beauty in my life. The beauty of a group of 15 kids ranging in age from 5-12 working together and helping each other in our community garden in our Libray Kids in the Garden program. One child has profound hearing loss and speech difficulty, yet was easily welcomed and included by all the others. The youngest seems painfully shy, yet found his footing with the help of another child a couple of years older. The two oldest, where there seems to be a marked difference in maturity, hung together at first, then realized the younger ones were struggling with the scavenger hunt and split up to help the younger ones. All of this coöperation, with not one episode of unkindness or lack of enthusiasm, was truly a thing of beauty. As the weeks go by and our tomatoes, carrots, broccoli and assorted other goodies begin to ripen and the kids get to know each other better I expect there will be more moments like this. This day, which was glorious in every way, with warm sun and clear skies, came on the heels of gray day after gray day, punctuated only by rain and wind. I felt deflated and filled with the kind of gloom that only a long Montana “sprinter” (spring on the calendar – winter outdoors) can induce. Then suddenly sun, smiling excited faces, and my hands in the dirt to turn it all around in a quick two and a half hours.
This morning we are back to “sprinter” even though summer is only days away, it is wet and cool again. But the beauty lingers in me and I see how green the grasses and trees are, washed clean overnight; and the wildflowers continue to burst forth with the long hours of daylight with or without the sun.
Continually watering the inner garden and filling oneself with every moment of beauty and tranquility grows inward radiance becoming one’s gift to the outer world as well as to oneself. Add a full mix of care, compassion, hope, joy, wonder and beauty of all kinds. The more one contains of the positive the less room to hold anger, sadness, cynicism or indifference. Taking care what is added to the container, mindful that all that one contains colors all that is seen and done; choose wisely.
OK, so I will admit I have fallen under the spell of the Happiness Project. http://www.happiness-project.com/ Who knew it could be this easy? I am such a sucker for the tag line, “studies show”, and one of the first studies cited shows that taking immediate action gives one a boost and is the gift that keeps on giving. My first resolutions:
Start writing again – a blog is a great way to start!
Volunteer – using my best self
Pursue the intellectual – read more challenging material, think about IDEAS!
Yesterday one of the take action steps was to go to the local public library and submit my volunteer application. I am embarrassed to admit it was the first time I set foot in the door so it may seem odd that I had already decided to volunteer there, but books are my thing, and I need to add some regular human contact to my otherwise rather isolated lifestyle. So the library it is! I was pleased to see that it was comfortable, well stocked, has current book offerings and has wi-fi so some of these missives may originate from there in the future. It is on the other hand, a small town library and needs more space and a remodel – the floors are a serious tripping hazard – I see I have my work cut out for me. What better place to offer my time than a house for books that needs a lot of work, I may be able to use some of that construction knowledge yet.
Take action today items are:
Work on this blog and find three others that are related or of interest
Work on my Happiness Project Toolbox – you’ll have to follow the link if you don’t know what that is
Choose three books that inspire me to mine for essay ideas